5/17/09

Spinning.
Twirling.
Running away.

Today and sadly like most days I feel like a terrible mother. I try hard but can't control my temper. I feel like I've lost control on EVERYTHING. I don't enjoy cooking like I used to. It's a chore just like everything else. I don't remember the last time I laughed. My house is ALWAYS dirty. I can't keep up. I feel overwhelmed and miserable. I'm angry all the time. I feel like I'm going to burst with hot lava. I try deep breathing. Counting to 10. I don't know what to do :(

8 comments:

bopbopdesigns said...

Well you had me fooled! Those gorgeous girls look like they have the best Mom in the world.

PS I think we all have those days. I totally use to love to cook, now I am happy to make a PB&J. ;) ::hugs::

Kirsten said...

YOU are a wonderful mom! I think that is a commom theme among us mommies! I too am at my wits end, no one values anything I do, my opinions seem to matter less every day etc..... Much harder job than I have ever had. Sending a big love and some dreams of chocolate your way! XOXO kir

Jody said...

I can completely relate, Pam! I know that feeling and it can be nasty...and boy, I can relate to the short fuse/big temper thing! Hang in there...you're an amazing mom---probably just lots of stress coming at you from all directions...I know how quickly things can seem great and then suddenly completely overwhelming...especially when we perfectionists/type As have such high expectations!:)
Can you get a break this week? A massage or a break from kiddos to do something for yourself?
I'm sending good energy and thoughts your way...be gentle with yourself---it will get better!
Lots of xxooo your way!!!!
love,
jody

ShoozieShoes said...

Oh my dear - sorry to hear you are going through a rough spot. Hugs!

How about a cleaning service, once or twice a month?

Laura said...

read my blog. from the beginning. THAT is what you do. Because I have been SO honest. And I know what it feels like to spin out of control and to be unhappy with EVERYTHING.
This will pass, though, you know....you do know that...but while you are IN it, I know...it is really really hard.
SO I will say a prayer for you...right now, in fact...and just know that I am thinking about you today.
And I have been there.
WE all have.

Kristen said...

I think we can all relate to this quote I came across...

I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once."
-Jennifer Unlimited-

I wish I lived close...we could chat over Starbucks and Dr. Pepper. Take care sweet lady!
Lotsa Love,
Kristen

PamperingBeki said...

Trying to figure out if you wrote this or if I did!

This is exactly how I feel nearly all the time.

Laura said...

hey...just checking in on you. hope things are better today.
Today is my spinning out of control day...spun myself into tears. wish this day were already done.

see???? we all go through it!
just part of the joy of motherhood I suppose.
xoxo
thinking of ya