a lot...

i've been ignoring a lot of stuff lately...
a.lot.
phone calls,
emails,
dirt.
i'm trying to get myself motivated but everywhere i look there's something i want to hide.
piles of paper,
laundry,
bread that's gone moldy,
me.
i've got dreams.
big, big dreams...
the ones that make your chest feel constricted because those dreams just aren't happening now.
do you know the ones?
the ones that can't come fast enough and you just can't figure out a way to make them a go.
i find my mind gets caught up in such crazy, debilitating thoughts
that stop me dead in my tracks.
oil spills,
children killing children,
bullying.
horrible,
negative crap...
the reason i NEVER watch the news
but somehow my ignorant bliss is interrupted by
blips on the radio,
the internet,
the bar.
i just want to be a kid again
and worry instead whether i should ride my bike or go on the swings.