i did it!!!

really didn't think it would happen!!!

it'll be in the mail soon :)

peace mon!

two kids down 

one to go...

maybe i will get our christmas card done this year!

an out take from our shoot this afternoon

(and this is the one who hates the camera)

:)

a new day...

woke up this morning after a fit-full sleep

the dog was barking until all hours

thoughts swirling around and around in my head

didn't think i was going to get any rest

thought for sure i could feel my head pounding at 5 am

i rose out of bed before daylight and found that 

clarity 

welcomed me

i felt relief

perhaps it was the tears i shed last night

my words heard

my heart listened

i will take each day as it comes

as my man does

i will dip into my craft 

and shrug off the bad stuff

the stuff i can't control

and 

breathe

i know i've been gone 

a

lot.

my hope is with a new year just around the corner

i will feel like a fresh start is in order.

there are so many things about this past year i just want to forget

and so i do

by 

ignoring them.

i haven't wanted to visit all those happy blogs in my sidebar,

haven't wanted to post lately because 

i don't want to be debbie downer.

i'm working through something inside myself that just takes time.

patience.

i want to keep it real around here and 

posting the fa-la-la's of my day seem like a lie.

i'm not a liar.

i'm keeping my fingers crossed that i get swept up in the christmas spirt

asap.

love,

me